Between you and me, I like to stalk people's profiles on Friendster. In my spare time, when I'm not busy playing Text Twist (or looking up decent, affordable uni abroad that has postgraduate programs majoring in journalism), I surf through my friends list, which leads me to my friends' friends list, and so on.
Now I'm doing it (since I've given up looking for journalism school in Malaysia). And between you and me, I don't like how a close friend of mine is casually-yet-constantly dating this girl. I tried to be okay with it (yknow, as long as he's happy), but sometimes, specially when I just saw their Friendster profiles, I can't. Ooh, that I-don't-know-you-yet-I-don't-like-you-already attack is coming. Not like I'm jealous, it's just that he goes on SO much better with his ex, which is one of my besties.
They made such a great couple, I empathized too much when they broke up. Here's what my childish, selfish mind has to say about this:
Can't you two just get back together nooow? I know it's none of my business, and I should just support whatever it is my best friends decide, but you are made for each other!! I mean, surely this guy doesn't have a psycho ex-girlfriend who seems to be ready to kill my best friend anytime. And you, guy, is this new girl funny? Does she behave in such an angelic way, her bright mood is so infectious?
Between you and me, I think I'm obsessing this way too much.
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Quit guilt
How do you quit a job? How do you say it to your boss who just lost her beloved mother recently, in need of a few teachers to fill in for upcoming new classes and is taking a break from all of it (and suspectedly is also having a nervous breakdown from these things)?
The thing is, I think I have to quit my teaching job. I wanna concentrate on thesis/internship starting August, so it means I still have time until about June/July-ish to break this news to my boss. But then, I'm planning to have (a). A TOEFL course (b). A Spanish course (c). A Photoshop course (d). A holiday with my friends PLUS another one with Bangun (this whole double, sok kaya holidays was his idea--he thought we needed another honeymoon, since Bali last year was so special for us) in July.
Two out of four points above is enough to take up my teaching time (I know I won't get to do all four). That's why I may have to quit on July. Which means June will be my last month. Which means I have to resign at least this May.
I just don't have the heart to do it. It looks like Chrysolit is kinda short on teachers now, and will it even be ethical to resign? Also, I hate to admit it but those satanic children have grown on me. Somehow, through those demonic behaviors, they've made their rocky way to my heart and built a camp there. I missed them when I took my one-month-off, how can I live without them?! Plus if I quit, I can't see Rosa, seriously the cutest girl on earth, anymore. And I know this sounds so...teacher-y, it's just that I want to see them with improved skills, I want to see that they've actually gained something from my classes.
God I feel noble.
I bet if boredom or laziness was my reason, I would have more guts (and less morale) to do it.
The thing is, I think I have to quit my teaching job. I wanna concentrate on thesis/internship starting August, so it means I still have time until about June/July-ish to break this news to my boss. But then, I'm planning to have (a). A TOEFL course (b). A Spanish course (c). A Photoshop course (d). A holiday with my friends PLUS another one with Bangun (this whole double, sok kaya holidays was his idea--he thought we needed another honeymoon, since Bali last year was so special for us) in July.
Two out of four points above is enough to take up my teaching time (I know I won't get to do all four). That's why I may have to quit on July. Which means June will be my last month. Which means I have to resign at least this May.
I just don't have the heart to do it. It looks like Chrysolit is kinda short on teachers now, and will it even be ethical to resign? Also, I hate to admit it but those satanic children have grown on me. Somehow, through those demonic behaviors, they've made their rocky way to my heart and built a camp there. I missed them when I took my one-month-off, how can I live without them?! Plus if I quit, I can't see Rosa, seriously the cutest girl on earth, anymore. And I know this sounds so...teacher-y, it's just that I want to see them with improved skills, I want to see that they've actually gained something from my classes.
God I feel noble.
I bet if boredom or laziness was my reason, I would have more guts (and less morale) to do it.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Current state
Two thirty a.m. Alone in my room, with nothing but the sound of my fingers clicking the keyboard. A backup CD is inside the drive, with old pictures and written files in it. 2004, 2003, 2002. They're all there; The girls, the boys, friends who are still in touch, friends who are occasionally still in touch, friends who are lost, short-term friends, short-term friends who are lost.
Ah, cut the craplah. My point is, lagi-lagi, nostalgia memang suka bikin gilaaa yaaaaaa..Apalagi kalo malem-malem sendirian. Waw. I feel like smiling alone with a slight pang inside (haha norak) when looking at these pictures. It's like they tell my story from time to time. Ada jamannya ini, jamannya itu. I can imagine how I was feeling when I took some particular pictures. And it's quite funny (and sad) looking at those pictures thinking how some of us have somehow grown awfully apart from each other now. I'm not saying this current state sucks and I'm stuck in the past. I'm not. It's just that no matter what, sometimes it feels nice to have a look back through the pictures.
Reminiscing is good, when you have someone to share it with. Hmm. I'm blabbing aren't I.
p.s : Rongky, above all, photo session kita yang banyaknya melebihi portfolio supermodel kelas kakap itu amat sangat hilarious kalo diliat-liat lagi. I'd put up one here, but then it also means I'm showing my stupidity to the world. Itu loh, foto kita mati.
[song of the day: sova - bridge is falling]
Ah, cut the craplah. My point is, lagi-lagi, nostalgia memang suka bikin gilaaa yaaaaaa..Apalagi kalo malem-malem sendirian. Waw. I feel like smiling alone with a slight pang inside (haha norak) when looking at these pictures. It's like they tell my story from time to time. Ada jamannya ini, jamannya itu. I can imagine how I was feeling when I took some particular pictures. And it's quite funny (and sad) looking at those pictures thinking how some of us have somehow grown awfully apart from each other now. I'm not saying this current state sucks and I'm stuck in the past. I'm not. It's just that no matter what, sometimes it feels nice to have a look back through the pictures.
Reminiscing is good, when you have someone to share it with. Hmm. I'm blabbing aren't I.
p.s : Rongky, above all, photo session kita yang banyaknya melebihi portfolio supermodel kelas kakap itu amat sangat hilarious kalo diliat-liat lagi. I'd put up one here, but then it also means I'm showing my stupidity to the world. Itu loh, foto kita mati.
[song of the day: sova - bridge is falling]
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