Hey, last post of 2004. Here's to hoping 2005 will be a LOT better than this year. On a scale 1-10, 10 being the most exciting, mind-blowing, yippety-yay-woo-hoo-hoo year, i'd rate 2004...7. Yeah. It wasn't that bad, tho it wasn't that good either. The highlights, in brief, were:
1. January-Mid February. Orang-orang lagi pada ngumpul-ngumpulnya. Almost every week, i spent the Saturday nights with my friends, trying some things i'd never done. And of course there was Dufan, the most memorable day of 2004.
2. May-June-ish. I seem to spend a lot of time with the Bandung kids, a.k.a Bangun-Ebonk. 'Nuff said. Hehehe.
3. July. KL trip. Away from Jakarta, jadi turis norak, shopped like there was no tomorrow, saw new places, went ballistic with Runi and Dinda.
4. November. I turned 20. Runi turned 20 six days after that and we celebrated her birthday with the girls and some guys (go fumble around and find the entry) and i've decided, it was the best day of 2004, Nov.11. I remember feeling happy and light and well, in love. Heehee. I was surrounded by my closest ones.
That's all i can think of tonight. Just got home, another day with Bangun-Ebonk. I think tomorrow we're just gonna have a little party at my house. With all that's left, hopefully it'll be a blast.
[song of the day: the killers - smile like you mean it]
Friday, December 31, 2004
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Keep me in your thoughts, don't disappear
=) day.
Spend practically all my waking hours with Bangun. First off, Hilman's place. That lanky guy has a really comfortable hangout place in his garden so we just sat there, mainly laughing at his attitude. He also took this hilarious pic of me and Bangun. Posenya kayak pasangan cina romantis. Then we went to Bangun's to pick Ebonk up, ate pisang bakar in Rempoa (the famous PBR--you should really try it), then to my house. Here, we just watched the telly, doing nothing but leyeh2 in my living room.
At around 10-ish, the three of us went to Parc with Gibond, Kopral and two of Kopral's friends (one of them was that Demas guy). I know, what the hell were we thinking, going to a place like that. It was still...unfamiliar to me. Well it was my first time going there, but i don't mind NOT going there again. yeah, so there was rock music as it was Monday night, but still! I'd prefer a nice, quiet place with coffee and lounge music if i want to just hang out with my closest friends. Thankfully, tho, we got to sit in the long, comfortable couch. So there i was, glued to the sofa all night, making fun of people with Bangun.
I was enjoying my beer, my ciggie, and my company when suddenly guess who walked straight to my direction. Adit. Hahah, really, what's with that guy. Then after talking for quite a while, he joined me and Bangun on the couch! Not long after that, he got home. So did i, with the guys. We couldn't take one longer minute there, so we decided to get the hell out. I, Bangun, Ebonk and Gibond went to Kebon Sirih to grab some foods. Remember, the only other time i'd gone there was on a date with Sakti, where Adit tagged along. Tsk tsk tsk.
All in all, nice nice nice day. Driving around the town (well, we got lost at one a.m, muter-muter daerah cikini-menteng-salemba dan sekitarnya gara2 Gibond sotoy), accompanied by The Killers and Ryan Adams (loads of Ryan Adams) on the stereo. As usual, i'm swept by small, unimportant details ;)
Today I watched the boats
Moving through the harbor
Walking on water
In your arms I'd stay
Forever if I could
Forever if I may
Keep me in your thoughts, don't disappear
I am on your side
And so alive
So alive it isn't real
If this is how I feel
Then nothing now is true
And nothing now can ever be taken away from you
Sinking in the past, the things that shouldn't last
Just put to bed and stand beside me
Stand beside me
[ryan adams]
[song of the day: embrace - ashes]
Spend practically all my waking hours with Bangun. First off, Hilman's place. That lanky guy has a really comfortable hangout place in his garden so we just sat there, mainly laughing at his attitude. He also took this hilarious pic of me and Bangun. Posenya kayak pasangan cina romantis. Then we went to Bangun's to pick Ebonk up, ate pisang bakar in Rempoa (the famous PBR--you should really try it), then to my house. Here, we just watched the telly, doing nothing but leyeh2 in my living room.
At around 10-ish, the three of us went to Parc with Gibond, Kopral and two of Kopral's friends (one of them was that Demas guy). I know, what the hell were we thinking, going to a place like that. It was still...unfamiliar to me. Well it was my first time going there, but i don't mind NOT going there again. yeah, so there was rock music as it was Monday night, but still! I'd prefer a nice, quiet place with coffee and lounge music if i want to just hang out with my closest friends. Thankfully, tho, we got to sit in the long, comfortable couch. So there i was, glued to the sofa all night, making fun of people with Bangun.
I was enjoying my beer, my ciggie, and my company when suddenly guess who walked straight to my direction. Adit. Hahah, really, what's with that guy. Then after talking for quite a while, he joined me and Bangun on the couch! Not long after that, he got home. So did i, with the guys. We couldn't take one longer minute there, so we decided to get the hell out. I, Bangun, Ebonk and Gibond went to Kebon Sirih to grab some foods. Remember, the only other time i'd gone there was on a date with Sakti, where Adit tagged along. Tsk tsk tsk.
All in all, nice nice nice day. Driving around the town (well, we got lost at one a.m, muter-muter daerah cikini-menteng-salemba dan sekitarnya gara2 Gibond sotoy), accompanied by The Killers and Ryan Adams (loads of Ryan Adams) on the stereo. As usual, i'm swept by small, unimportant details ;)
Today I watched the boats
Moving through the harbor
Walking on water
In your arms I'd stay
Forever if I could
Forever if I may
Keep me in your thoughts, don't disappear
I am on your side
And so alive
So alive it isn't real
If this is how I feel
Then nothing now is true
And nothing now can ever be taken away from you
Sinking in the past, the things that shouldn't last
Just put to bed and stand beside me
Stand beside me
[ryan adams]
[song of the day: embrace - ashes]
Monday, December 27, 2004
Go flutter
Sat-night recap: Went to KFC Kemang with Runi to meet up with Bangun, Hilman, Kacank, Jaya, Kopral, Tesar, Beruk, Reno and some of Tesar's friends. A few hours later, after discussing, stalling, and arguing (and dozens of cigarettes), we decided to go to Star Deli. The place was empty, only a few foreigners hanging out near the bar. The guys played a few rounds of pool, there were two pitchers of beer, and a couple of drinks (I love their Absolut Sex). We got home at 2-ish. It was not a bad Saturday night, i guess. Seeing people at christmas...
Another thing; it's super silly, but last night i didn't feel any...chemistry going on with me. Weird. Please, please, please, come back, dear giddy butterflies.
New year's coming up in a bloody week. And weird as it feels, i don't have plans yet. I don't know why, i'm just not in the mood for taking care of everything again, tho once in a while i miss planning a party out, getting all anxious and giddy thinking about it. But this year, people rarely even hang out together anymore!! Two words; things change. O how i hate those words.
[song of the day: smashing pumpkins - tonight, tonight]
Another thing; it's super silly, but last night i didn't feel any...chemistry going on with me. Weird. Please, please, please, come back, dear giddy butterflies.
New year's coming up in a bloody week. And weird as it feels, i don't have plans yet. I don't know why, i'm just not in the mood for taking care of everything again, tho once in a while i miss planning a party out, getting all anxious and giddy thinking about it. But this year, people rarely even hang out together anymore!! Two words; things change. O how i hate those words.
[song of the day: smashing pumpkins - tonight, tonight]
Thursday, December 23, 2004
When it rains, it pours.
Hello, little bubble. Looks like everyone's gone, huh. I've not been having good days. Nothing's been going right, my GPA's out and it's the worst I've ever gotten in my two and a half years of college, the fact that I failed a class for the first time still haunts me, my paranoid mind doesn't stop bugging me, I'm somehow feeling low and crappy, and instead of friends, I've got butterflies with me 24/7.
Why now. Why not later, when my friends aren't so busy with their stuff? Why not later, when Runi--my only 24/7 I had even though lately I'm not sure if she still is as things seem to always get in the way--is back from whatever the hell it is she's busy with? Why not later, when Bandung kids are here so I can use some distractions?
I so wanna get the hell out of here. Go start a new life or something, where everyone's new, where I don't have to say goodbye to just some part of my life 'cos I'll leave all of them behind. Maybe I could join some Witness Protection Program so no fuckin one knows where I am or what my name is.
Speaking of Witness Protection Program, remember that time when I got robbed and the thieves got caught? Today was their trial day, and I was supposed to come but I didn't. Firstly, it was located somewhere on Kota Tangerang. Notice the word "kota". The city looks so hectic, hot, and traffic jam is definitely an everyday dish. And I'm talking about those traffic jam where angkots are everywhere, literally scattered all over the road, not minding the rules, ethics, and other drivers around them. Secondly, as I said before, everyone's gone. I couldn't go to a trial alone, now, could I. Mum's been so busy with her work, it's impossible to ask her out on a weekday.
Earlier today I went to PIM with Dinda though, and it was a bit refreshing. We wanted to give Mum something for Mother's Day, and in the end we got her this blue, cute-looking jar and we stuffed it with chocos. Seeing her face beam with happiness today was the highlight of my recent days. Now I know she'll never read this, but love you a bunch and a half, Mummy! Seriously, I've never found any better mother in this world. I pity you who don't have her as your mum.
Ugh, people, if you can't be around so much, why don't you all just die or something. *ooh, the late-night, impulsive, no-brainer line from the Queen of Ego*
Stuck here, in the middle of nowhere
With a head ache, and a heavy heart
Well nothing is going quite right here
And I'm tired, I can't play no part
Come on, come on
Oh what a state I'm in
Come on, come on
Why won't it just sink in?
[coldplay]
[song of the day: coldplay - help is round the corner]
Why now. Why not later, when my friends aren't so busy with their stuff? Why not later, when Runi--my only 24/7 I had even though lately I'm not sure if she still is as things seem to always get in the way--is back from whatever the hell it is she's busy with? Why not later, when Bandung kids are here so I can use some distractions?
I so wanna get the hell out of here. Go start a new life or something, where everyone's new, where I don't have to say goodbye to just some part of my life 'cos I'll leave all of them behind. Maybe I could join some Witness Protection Program so no fuckin one knows where I am or what my name is.
Speaking of Witness Protection Program, remember that time when I got robbed and the thieves got caught? Today was their trial day, and I was supposed to come but I didn't. Firstly, it was located somewhere on Kota Tangerang. Notice the word "kota". The city looks so hectic, hot, and traffic jam is definitely an everyday dish. And I'm talking about those traffic jam where angkots are everywhere, literally scattered all over the road, not minding the rules, ethics, and other drivers around them. Secondly, as I said before, everyone's gone. I couldn't go to a trial alone, now, could I. Mum's been so busy with her work, it's impossible to ask her out on a weekday.
Earlier today I went to PIM with Dinda though, and it was a bit refreshing. We wanted to give Mum something for Mother's Day, and in the end we got her this blue, cute-looking jar and we stuffed it with chocos. Seeing her face beam with happiness today was the highlight of my recent days. Now I know she'll never read this, but love you a bunch and a half, Mummy! Seriously, I've never found any better mother in this world. I pity you who don't have her as your mum.
Ugh, people, if you can't be around so much, why don't you all just die or something. *ooh, the late-night, impulsive, no-brainer line from the Queen of Ego*
Stuck here, in the middle of nowhere
With a head ache, and a heavy heart
Well nothing is going quite right here
And I'm tired, I can't play no part
Come on, come on
Oh what a state I'm in
Come on, come on
Why won't it just sink in?
[coldplay]
[song of the day: coldplay - help is round the corner]
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Testing 1, 2, 3..
Is this thing on? Can i finally see this writing? I tried accessing this blog again a few seconds ago and it worked! Let's see if it's only a two-second-miracle or not. Haha, funny how i just updated my journal cos i wanted to write something tonight, but i thought this wasn't working. Well it does, apparently. Now i can work on the new layout (this one isn't final yet).
Enough crap. How have i been, huh? I have been bored to death. I have been thinking how this holiday, so far, feels nothing like a holiday (well except when Bandung kids are here *grins*). I have been trying to tell myself that of course, nothing ever stays the same--therefore, i can't always have the joy of last year's holiday. I have been awake, for God's sake. Yes, the insomniac butterflies are here again. My eyes just won't close before 3 a.m. Sick.
Thank God for my new PC, now i can kill my time being a geek. Blog layouts, blog entries, writing stories (so far it's always raincheck and raincheck on this one), The Sims 2..Ah, the bliss of a decent PC.
Social life hasn't been that good, due to the sudden disappearance of people. Where are they? I thought this was the time when people i don't regularly see showed up. It's weird, really. Speaking of people, rumors about me and Bangun are spreading even stronger. Haha, let people assume any way they want. Though i wonder what does Bangun have in mind about this. Strangely, we never talk about it.
Help, i wanna sleep. I'm not in the mood to stay up (mainly because teman kalong saya si Runi lg gak asik diajak begadang, dan Adit away mulu di MSN), these butterflies inside just won't keep bugging me! Oh, great, and i just heard the sound of a thunder. So i'm gonna be up accompanied by raindrops tonight? Charming.
Owell. Off to...I don't know, start writing i guess. I'm suddenly in the mood for it.
s e e y o u s o o n (three strong words, indeed).
[song of the day: maroon 5 - must get out]
Enough crap. How have i been, huh? I have been bored to death. I have been thinking how this holiday, so far, feels nothing like a holiday (well except when Bandung kids are here *grins*). I have been trying to tell myself that of course, nothing ever stays the same--therefore, i can't always have the joy of last year's holiday. I have been awake, for God's sake. Yes, the insomniac butterflies are here again. My eyes just won't close before 3 a.m. Sick.
Thank God for my new PC, now i can kill my time being a geek. Blog layouts, blog entries, writing stories (so far it's always raincheck and raincheck on this one), The Sims 2..Ah, the bliss of a decent PC.
Social life hasn't been that good, due to the sudden disappearance of people. Where are they? I thought this was the time when people i don't regularly see showed up. It's weird, really. Speaking of people, rumors about me and Bangun are spreading even stronger. Haha, let people assume any way they want. Though i wonder what does Bangun have in mind about this. Strangely, we never talk about it.
Help, i wanna sleep. I'm not in the mood to stay up (mainly because teman kalong saya si Runi lg gak asik diajak begadang, dan Adit away mulu di MSN), these butterflies inside just won't keep bugging me! Oh, great, and i just heard the sound of a thunder. So i'm gonna be up accompanied by raindrops tonight? Charming.
Owell. Off to...I don't know, start writing i guess. I'm suddenly in the mood for it.
s e e y o u s o o n (three strong words, indeed).
[song of the day: maroon 5 - must get out]
Everyone but me
Looks like everyone can see my new layout but me. Why why whyyyyyyyyyy can't I seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?!?!?!?!?! Oi, where are youuuuuuuuuuu?????? Appear before my eyes, please!!!!!!!!!!
*end of frustration*
*end of frustration*
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Transition
Where's that layout with that girl's eyes and half-a-face and eyes and more eyes, i hear you ask. I'm bored with that template, but still not arsed to finish this new one. So watch this space, people, i'll be back with new layout, hopefully (well there's always an option where i can just give up and put the old one), plus a brief round-up of what i've been up to. Maybe. It's just, daily life hasn't been cherry pie lately.
Oh well. See you fuckin soon.
Oh well. See you fuckin soon.
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