Quit guilt

How do you quit a job? How do you say it to your boss who just lost her beloved mother recently, in need of a few teachers to fill in for upcoming new classes and is taking a break from all of it (and suspectedly is also having a nervous breakdown from these things)?

The thing is, I think I have to quit my teaching job. I wanna concentrate on thesis/internship starting August, so it means I still have time until about June/July-ish to break this news to my boss. But then, I'm planning to have (a). A TOEFL course (b). A Spanish course (c). A Photoshop course (d). A holiday with my friends PLUS another one with Bangun (this whole double, sok kaya holidays was his idea--he thought we needed another honeymoon, since Bali last year was so special for us) in July.

Two out of four points above is enough to take up my teaching time (I know I won't get to do all four). That's why I may have to quit on July. Which means June will be my last month. Which means I have to resign at least this May.

I just don't have the heart to do it. It looks like Chrysolit is kinda short on teachers now, and will it even be ethical to resign? Also, I hate to admit it but those satanic children have grown on me. Somehow, through those demonic behaviors, they've made their rocky way to my heart and built a camp there. I missed them when I took my one-month-off, how can I live without them?! Plus if I quit, I can't see Rosa, seriously the cutest girl on earth, anymore. And I know this sounds so...teacher-y, it's just that I want to see them with improved skills, I want to see that they've actually gained something from my classes.

God I feel noble.

I bet if boredom or laziness was my reason, I would have more guts (and less morale) to do it.